Everyday comes to an end

HONESTLY SECTION;
Honestly, what color is your underwear: Dark blue with white polka dots.
Honestly, whats on your mind: How to kill the next 8 1/2 hours.
Honestly, what are you doing right now: This + listening to KISW live.
Honestly, who are your best friends: Mo, Carl, Mom. Duh.
Honestly, have you done something bad today: No
Honestly, do you watch Disney channel: Sometimes.
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone: Tobias
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now: No
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time: People who speak before they think. Ignorance is ugly.
Honestly, do you bite your nails: Not anymore.
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment: Yes
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now: No
Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like: No.. What a strange question.
Honestly, does anyone like you: I certainly hope so.

'CAN SECTION;
Can you blow a bubble: Yes
Can you dance: Oh course!
Can you do a cart wheel: Yes
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth: No
Can you touch your toes: Yes
Can you whistle: Yes
Can you wiggle your ears: No
Can you wiggle your nose: Yes
Can you roll your tongue: No
Can you make a clover with your tongue: No

'ANGER SECTION:
What do you do when you’re mad: Hibernate
Do you swear when you’re mad: Occasionally.

'TEAR SECTION;
Ever really cried your heart out: Yes
Ever cried yourself to sleep: Yes
Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder: Yes
Ever cried over the same sex: Not "over" her - but "because" of her, i guess.
Do you cry when you get an injury: Depends
Do certain songs make you cry: Yes
Do certain movies make you cry: Yes

'HAPPY SECTION;
Are you usually a happy person: Yes - for the most part.
What makes you the happiest: Mo, Food, Friends, Tobias, Family.
Does being with your friends make you happy: Yes
Do you believe in yourself: Sometimes
Do you wish you were happier: Of course-who doesn't?
Is being happy overrated: No
Can music make you happy: Yes

'LOVE SECTION;
How many times have you had your heart broken: 3
Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them: Yes - definitely done some stupid things because I was blinded.
Has anyone besides your friends/family ever said I love you: Yes

HATE SECTION;
Do you actually hate anyone: No
Ever made a hit list: No
Have you ever been on a hit list: I don't see why I would be...
Are you a mean bully: Eh - kind of.

'SELF-ESTEEM SECTION;
Is your self-esteem extremely low: It can get there.
Are you good looking: I think so.
Do you wish you could be someone else: No.

'PHYSICAL SECTION;
What is your current hair color: Brown
Have any tattoos: 2: Mo kitty (behind my ear), Stick figure siblings on my R foot.
Straight hair or curly: Curly
What shirt are you wearing: Powder blue tshirt.
Pants: black (dress)
Shoes: black heels
Necklace: none - it broke last weekend. :(

'HAVE YOU EVER SECTON;
Hugged someone: Everyday
Been on the phone until the sun came up: Yes
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants: ...
Laughed so hard you cried: Yes
Got in a fight with someone: Yes

'LASTS SECTION;
Person you talked to in person: Someone from work.
Person you talked to online: Nina (MSN!)
Person you talked to on the phone: Tobias
Person you hugged: Tobias
Person you kissed: Tobias

'CURRENT SECTION;
Current mood: Bored.
Current music: KISW BJ Shea.
Current hair style: straight and up.
Current windows open: lj, facebook, hotmail, msn, 99.9 listen live, outlook address book, outlook, vuetura tru, remote desktop
Current desktop picture: Ashley's pug.
Current book: The Pretties

'DID SECTION;
Did you ever get into a fist fight in school: No
Did you ever run away from home: Yes

'DO SECTION;
Do you know how to swim: Yes
Do you like roller coasters: Yes

'HAVE SECTION;
Have you ever been asked out by someone: Like, a date? ... ya.
Have you ever painted your nails: Yes

( Sum of the last few months... since my last post - which was almost a year ago, wow. my bad, sorry! ) SOOOO much has happened. #1. Ryan and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary on 4/20/2008 #2. My Mom has been dating... SCOTT (Seattle PD) - they just had their 6month anniversary. #3. Celisa moved out! #4. My brother Ryan is serving a mission in Brazil #5. I got my own apartment with Josh, Charlotte, and Ryan in Kirkland. #6. WE GOT A DOG! (cooper - chocolate lab). #7. Shea moved away to Fiji #8. I went to Banks Lake with Nina (her and I have 'reconnected' i love it!)

Meet the last 6 months:






This, is Ryan.
Ryan is 19, 6'4", brown hair, hazel eyes.
Ryan is adored by my gramma Sharon and my aunt Ginger.
Ryan has definitely changed my life.





My little kitty, Chloe.
I picked her up last night while Ryan was visiting his friend Whitney.
Apparently his friend, Whit, anyway - his cat had kittens awhile ago and was trying to get rid of them.
I absolutely fell in love with this little furry grey mess and had to take her home.
So I snuck her in the car and when Ryan finally found out I took her, all he could do was *sigh*.
I love my new kitty.


On another note.
Mo is VERY pissed off at me.
Ha.


I work with this guy who cuts hair. His name is Kris.
He cut my hair.




(oh, disregard the prop in that picture..... um, that's just tsunami.)


I've moved out to snohomish.
I'm probably 10-15 minutes away from my grandma's house now & taking full advantage of it :D


Things with my dad & step mom are rocky.
I've talked with my mom a bit... but things probably won't ever be the same.
Oh well.
It's not like I picked a boy over them.
I chose my life over the one they had planned for me.
That's the way I look at it.


Um...
I've been out of work since September 19th.
Slipped and fell.
Broke my wrist.
I'm out until October 8th.
2 xrays and 1 MRI later of course.


I turned 20 on September 6th.
Incase anyone was wondering.
I sent Nina a text message on her birthday - but got no response.


Ummm...
Oh.
Moved out of mom's on June 19th.
Moved in Ryan's house in redmond.
Then we got evicted on August 1st.
Moved into apartments in woodinville.
Moved on labor day weekend to snohomish.
Now, we're here. Looking for our own little place.


I am so happy in my relationship though.
As much as people bitch to me or tell me he's not work it.
(ahem...)
No one really knows what goes behind closed doors.
I am a princess. :D
I am in love.


Goodbye!
Until I write again,
which... at this pace, may be in awhile.


Oh. hopefully I'll end up in cali, somehow, at the end of the month. It'd be nice to see the bff - since ryan see's his basically everyday. grr - so jealous!

nauseated.

I figured it was time for an update.
Since...
what better time than when your life is pulling you in every direction except the one you want to go in?!

Lets start with this:

Can't figure it out? Well...
That's my arm.
With an IV sticking out of it (in rather).
And I am covered in heated blankets because I could not control my shivers.
I was running a fever at 101.2.
I could barely breathe because my tonsils were so swollen and infected ... (it was so gross).
I was severely dehydrated.
But at least I was wearing new, clean underwear.
Did I forget to mention... I was in the Emergency Room at Evergreen Hospital? Yeah... :(

I've been feeling under the weather for... well - awhile.
Things just aren't looking up for me, physically I guess.
First, last month I was on my period for 30+ days. Thank God that stopped.
Then, I get this bug. I don't really know how long I've had it. It's been awhile.
Michelle (my boss), got angry at me on Sunday because I'm always sick lately, and sent me home - but told me I had to bring in a doctor's note THAT DAY.(wtf. I'd already gone to work.) So... I went to the Woodinville Urgency Care Clinic. Waited for 2 hours to see a doctor who told me I had the flu. He gave me 3 days to get over it - so I would be out of work until wednesday.
Turns out.
That doctor is a stupid mother fucker. Doesn't know what the hell he's talking about.
I end up in the emergency room, not even 24 hours later. With an IV sticking out of me and doctors taking blood and throat cultures just to figure out what the heck I have.
So.
They never really figured it out.
But they sent me home with two bruises on my arms (IVs), 1 bottle of vicodin, 1 bottle of some antibiotic, and 1 little purple stuffed monkey. So... I'm a little tired right now, and the fact that I'm on pain killers doesn't help. I'm slipping in and out of sleep. ick.

Anyway.
That was the hospital visit.

Then... There's my work issue.
Why I should probably start looking for a new place of employment. ... here's an example:

" ummm yeah.
michelle is a bitch.
i was closing last night and she was there and said "yeah so apparently jackie is (she used her fingers as quotes) "sick" and can't come to work".
then she laughed.
god, i wanted to punch her. "

That's the myspace message I got from Blakeney today.

Then there's this:

Gracie: she was talking to the girls after you left how she's sick of u always saying ur sik
Me: she didn't even know it
Me: michelle is sick of me always being sick?
Me: or the girls are?
Gracie: michelle
Gracie: she said that you always seem to be "sick" on the weekends
Me: :( I'm not gonna lie grace. I think Michelle has it out for me. I think she's waiting for me to fuck up so she can fire me.
Gracie: and i totally agree with you
Gracie: like no offence
Gracie: but she really doesnt like you
Me: none taken
Gracie: and idk why

Or how about that when she sent me home early - she forced me to get a note immediately. When I had already attended work and it was their choice to send me home early.


Oh well.
Count your blessing right?

Ilana is growing up to be a lovely young woman. I am very proud of her right now. For reasons I will choose not to disclose on my LJ - they're her business, not mine. But, I am proud of you, little lananana.

Nathan took care of me while I was sick. Made me tea, breakfast in bed, got me medicine when i couldn't leave my bed. It was sweet. I was so ugly and he still drove 3 hours to make sure I was still alive.

Not to mention.
I think he's sick now too. ha!

Boooo!
I have to START my final research paper in english.
GAH.
the first draft is due on thursday.
seems like i'm taking my laptop over to Nathan's tomorrow.
GRRRR.


... passing out.
fingers numb.
booo...
weird feeling.
<333
me

VALENTINE'S
1. Do you like anyone?: yes
2. Do they know it?: yes
3. Do they like you back?: yes

IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU. . .
4. Had someone buy you something?: no, not unless you count the food nina bought me.
5. Bought something?: yes, lunch and gas - thats all I can afford.
6. Gotten sick?: no
7. Been hugged?: yes
8. Felt stupid?: yes
9. Talked to an ex?: yes
10. Missed someone?: yes yes yes yes yes
12. Ate cereal?: no
13. Danced crazy: not unless you count hip shaking with little valence
14. Gotten your hair cut?: no, but I need to.
15. Lied?: yes

HAVE YOU EVER. . .
23. Said "I Love you.": yes
24. Given money to a homeless person?: no
27. Snuck out?: out of my dad's house - when I was like, a sophomore.
28. Sat and looked at the stars? yes
29. Do you swear?: on occasion, i try not to.
30. Do you ever spit?: yes
31. You cook your own food?: yes
33. You like beef jerky?: meh - on roadtrips
34. You like pepsi or coke?: coke
35. You're happy with your hair?: yes. very. but it needs to be cut, too many split ends.
36. You own a dog?: yes
37. You spend your money wisely?: not really - all my money goes to bills, and then gas. i can't even afford to eat.
38. Do you like to swim?: yes
39. Call a friend when you're bored?: yes

DO YOU PREFER
41. Flowers or angels?: flowers.
42. Gray or black?: black
43. Color or black an white photos?: b/w
44. Lust or love?: love
45. Sunrise or sunset? sunrise (if only someone was awake at that god awful time in the morning to share it with me)
46. M&Ms or Skittles?: peanut butter M&Ms

N0N VALENTiNES DAY Q`S
1. Do you believe in love at first sight?: well.. depends.
2. Do you believe in true love?: yes
3. Would you kiss on the first date?: no.
4. Do you look for hook ups?: no.
5. Do you enjoy receiving flowers?: It's my favorite thing to receive.

VALENTINES QUESTIONS!!
1. You have a valentine planned out to have?: If he comes home in time, yes.
2. Do you like having a valentine?: i don't know. I've never really had one.
3. Does someone like you currently?: yes
4. Are you even worried about the upcoming holiday?: no.
5. Whats the best gift to receive on the day?: flowers, rough snowboarding sex, imo.
6. Are you giving a gift?: meh. no.

This is my first update in awhile. I guess I'll post pictures while I'm at it.

Nothing new is going on in my life.
Christmas came and went.
I got a Coach planner & a pair of knee-high, 3 3/4" stilletto heel, pointy toe, black leather, nine west boots. They're amazing. I feel like catwoman or a sex kitten when I wear them. They're like "BAM! look at me."
New Years came and went.
Partied it up before 8pm so I could drive and be home by 1am.
I got a raise. I went from making $7.80/hr to making $9.08/hr.
I almost got fired.
I almost got promoted (by a different store manager).
(Oh, did I mention I worked on Christmas Day and New Years Day?... yeah.)

I got into school & now I'm applying for spring quarter.
My "secret santa" from work FINALLY gave me my present (today) - hellllllla stuff from Sephora!! :D I couldn't be happier, seriosly. I freaking love that store. I could spend all day there.

Um.. Oh - more about school.
I'm taking Nutrition, Anthropology, and English 102.
I'm hoping that the nutrition class will help me with my poor eating/diet habits. Who knows. I can always hope, right?

I've kinda been doing my own thing. Ilana came up for 3 weeks - I spent every waking minute with her (when I wasn't working) and I miss her dearly. Now she is gone :( *weeps* Nina and I don't see much of each other - that's okay though - we're both doing our own thing right now - but it's nice to know that if we ever need each other, we can still rely on each other to always be there (at least, i hope she feels that way, still).

I got myself a new cell phone. My own provider. My own bill. The big kahuna. You know - Where I pay $150/mo for 2100minutes. I feel so 'grown-up' woot woot!
425.614.6044 is the new number.

Sean left for Iraq on the 11th. He called me from Kuwait last night - it was kinda, weird - to say the least. I feel awfully special though.

Saw 'Blood Diamond' with Scott. REALLY good movie. I'd see it again, definitely.

Had dinner with Chris last night. It was fun.

I miss Carl. It's okay though - he'll be up soon. February I believe, if he gets all of his shit together, soon.


Oh. Did I mention that in the past month I have endured:
1. Wind Storm (without power for over a week)
2. Ice Storm (took 5 days to be able to leave my drive way without the rear end on my truck sliding across the road)
3. Snow Storm (make that 2. I'm in the middle of one right now)

<3



p.s.
i got tired. i'll post pictures later.

I'm sorry.
I was out of line.

Happy birthday on saturday.


I miss you, dearly.
<3

I got a 92% on my math midterm.
:)

fucking russians.
fucking cops.

fucking ticket!

fucking insurance.

goddamnit.
why did i have to get into an accident.
:(

This weekend.





was amazing.

For those who haven't heard... This boy, his name is Carl - he came up to seattle for the weekend. After a much delayed trip - he finally came up! :D like, im not kidding! those pictures are NOT superimposed. thats me. and carl.

I dropped him off at the airport around 3:30pm - mostly because we couldn't stand to be around each other any longer. ha. yeaaah - that's it. It was not a very romantic goodbye. i will leave it at that. wait, no i won't. i cried. a lot. a lot more than i have in a long time. and i was embarassed. i called ilana and sat on the phone and cried. today = sad day. i knew it eventually had to come, but i didn't expect it to hit me like it did. but, i guess he has to go home. people have responsibilities - it sucks.

the only reason i didn't want him to go - was because, idk when i'll see him again :( and that's sad, and scary and i don't want to have to deal with that!

this weekend was perfect. i can't believe i was initially scared on my way to pick him up from the airport. i'm so happy that he came. but im so sad that he's gone. oh well, i take comfort in knowing someday he'll come back. i hope.

i can't really say more than that. it's all i can think about atm. -_- i hope he flies safe. D:


<3
me

photo's chappy found from HIN! :D

( picture love. birthday&some extra-silly ones :D )

I'm pretty sure..
No,
I'm positive.
I had the greatest birthday.


Kyle took me out last night.
He showed up at my house, looking very nice might i add, with TWO dozen roses. TWO!
We hopped in his car and headed for Seattle... I still didn't know where we were going to dinner.
Apparently he's into "surprises" haha! :D

So... we park, and we walk. low&behold we show up @ benihana's! I've never been there before. My mom has only been there ONCE. I was pretty much amazed. Dinner ended up being like $70. My jaw has still yet to come up to my mouth with how amazed i am at my evening.
(oh. I got to dress up btw. hehe)

We came home, put a movie in.. and within 10 minutes, i fell asleep. hahaha. kyle took me up stairs to my room and tucked me in and went home D: He had to work at 11 & he stayed until like 2a. He's such a nice boy. I am so lucky :D

Hmm.. I surprised nina yesterday with balloons, flowers, breakfast, a blue stuffed hippo & the greatest card. :D I went over to her house after I got off of work. I have some pictures - I'll get around to uploading them eventually.

I got a new camera for my birthday.
So expect a ton of pictures to be taken.<3

I went out with Chris on my actual birthday. He's a silly boy - we always have a good time when we hang out. He took me out to dinner, unintentionally. I don't think he meant to stop and get food - but we did because we were starving. I helped him move into his new apt. & then helped his room mate move into it as well. It was a nice night. Probably the first night in 2 years that we've known each other that we ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING. VS hanging out at home and such.

I was supposed to take my truck in at 10a. but i slept through that... haha. Oops. my bad. I'll take it in later.

I sent Leesa *2nd cousin* an email & asked her if she'd like to do dinner or something tonight - we'll see. She's @ work right now.. so.. yeah.

OH btw. Talk about INAPPROPRIATE! Mom&Celisa started going off about Dad&Kris last night... when Kyle and I were sitting in the living room.. I was like, "this is inappropriate, will you please take this somewhere else? I have a guest over. thank you." I think they got it once i said it - it just made me feel really awkward to have kyle see/hear that. I mean, he'll learn eventually... but he doesn't need to know now. + I really don't want to scare him. We've only been dating for like 2/3 weeks.

... More on the Kyle note. If you know me, then you know how I am with boys. I go through them ridiculously fast. But i think a lot of that has to do with the fact that I never get to know them. kyle and i decided when we first got together that we were going to do things different. slow down, get to know each other. and that's exactly what we have done. I'm so proud of myself for holding back, haha! But really, he and I recapped last night at how we're actually doing what we said we would. He told me that i was gorgeous :D and that if we had taken things faster, that's all I would be to him, gorgeous. But we have taken things slow... so now on top of being gorgeous, i'm a really cool girl :D haha! it made my night. we had so much fun. I woke up this morning with drool alllllll over myself. it was gnarly.

Mmmm fried rice is downstairs.

I think i'm getting sick. LAME.

I have to work tomorrow morning. LAME

Sunday I have to work 13 hours. DIE!! ^__^ (let's see if i can survive. hehe)

Mo is asleep in my lap atm. it's adorable. i love my little kitty. :D he's growing up so fast though. the other day mom tried to talk him into staying with her when i moved out. he got up and ran to me and hopped on my lap and stared at her. hahaha! LOYAL CAT! :D he knows who his mama is.

on another note. i got an email from my grandma today... meant to be sent to Leesa... check this out:
"Hi Leesa, Loved hearing from you. I.m better I hope...too many pressures in life got the best of me. Having to miss Jackie's graduation and all broke my heart and then other pressures from kris because I even talk to jackie. Too bad I guess I made my choice. I need jackie in my life. "
Breaks my heart to see evil people out there trying to keep people from the ones they love.

fuck you kris, you = bitch. :D

I'm going to go back to bed now. I'm tired&my back hurts.
<3

me

i miss you :(

wow. i love this song.



Won't somebody come along
And teach me how to keep it alive?
To survive.

Come along and show me something
That I never knew in your eyes.
Take away the tournicate.

I used to be so full of my confidence,
I used to know just what I wanted and just where to go.
More than ever I could use a coincidence,
But now I walk alone and talk about it when I know.

Hey, oh yeah, how long?
I guess I ought to walk away,
Hey, oh yeah, so long...
What you gonna do today?

I don't wanna have to, but I will,
If that's what I'm supposed to do.
We don't wanna set up for the kill,
But that's what I'm about to do.

Let it on, I'll cut you off when you're screaming into the phone.
Hard to own.
Anyway, I wanna let you know that everything is on hold.
What you gonna do to me?

You used to be so warm and affectionate.
All the little things I used to hear my fairy say,
But now you're quick to get into your regret.
I'll take the fall and now you got to give it all away.

Hey, oh yeah, how long?
I guess I ought to walk away,
Hey, oh yeah, so long...
What you gonna do today?

I don't wanna have to, but I will,
If that's what I'm supposed to do.
We don't wanna set up for the kill,
But that's what I'm about to do.

Hey, what would you say if I stayed?
Stayed for a while, if I may.
Say it again and I'll come around,
But not for the last time...
Hey, what would you say if I changed?
I'll change everything but my name.
Play it again and I'll come around,
But not for the last time.

You used to be so warm and affectionate;
I used to know just what I wanted and just where to go.
And now you're quick to get into your regret;
And now I walk alone and talk about it when I know...

Hey, oh yeah, how long?
I guess you gotta walk away;
Hey, oh yeah, so long...
What you gonna do today?

Hey, oh yeah, how long?
I guess you gotta get away;
Hey, oh yeah, so long...
What you gonna do today?


oh a heavier note. i'm really irritated that people are so lame. like seriously, wtf, no im not okay! you hurt my feelings, and you didn't even notice it. I know it's stupid... and I'm stupid... and it isn't something I should worry about.. but seriously, :\ -- you hurt my feelings.

[update::]

taylor turns 14 today. didn't realize how fast time flies until i actually remembered growing up with him and realizing... he'll be driving next year... and then all the stupid things he lets me do to him. like: cut his hair, clip and clean his nails, give him facials, dress him up for dates, etc etc.. then again, i occasionally sit down and rock out with katamari competitions with him. <3 happy birthday little brother! Good luck this year, you'll need it, 14 was my toughest, that's for sure. I love you lots!

<3 your big sister

"My first car was a pick-up truck" :D

Jacob (9) and Taylor (13) are missing.
My mom is on hold with the police right now.
D:

wanna know why i have the coolest friends?
this is why.


[13:55] hand standing: but i could pretty much do that with anyone
[13:55] hand standing: tbqh
[13:55] jakkay9687: tbqh?
[13:55] hand standing: to be quite honest
[13:55] jakkay9687: oh
[13:55] hand standing: noob! come on you're killing me
[13:55] jakkay9687: shut p
[13:55] hand standing: <333
[13:55] jakkay9687: at least i know afk now
[13:55] jakkay9687: :P
[13:55] hand standing: okay, sushi time
[13:55] jakkay9687: and tbqh
[13:55] jakkay9687: and..
[13:55] jakkay9687: imho
[13:55] jakkay9687: or imo*
[13:56] jakkay9687: okay
[13:56] jakkay9687: see you in 20!
[13:56] jakkay9687: ... hours
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[13:56] hand standing: days*
[13:56] jakkay9687: oh yeah
[13:56] jakkay9687: jogging
[13:56] jakkay9687: years*
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[13:56] hand standing: light-years*
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